hello

hi there.

it's been so long since i wrote, i almost feel like i need to reintroduce myself to you.

i'm suzi. or susanne, suze, sue, depending on how close we are or how we were introduced. pretty much any variation of the name with the total exception of susan. to quote whitney houston, my name is not susan.

now that we've got that out of the way, this place is where i usually write my thoughts, ideas, musings. i say usually, because during those times when i don't want to know my own thoughts, ideas and musings, when i am scared of what i will find there, on those days i don't write.

there have been quite a few of those days lately.

but tonight i am breaking the silence.

last night i spent some time talking to God about the fact that in many ways, i don't know how to pray about Jayden and his situation. i won't bore you with all the details, but in essence, i asked God to tell me how to pray for this craziness.

i didn't have to wait very long for the answer.

this morning i heard about someone else who, in the midst of their own craziness, when asking for prayer, asked not that something miraculous would be done, but that they would be okay with whatever God was doing.

instantly, i knew this was my answer.

and this is now my prayer, not only for myself, but for my family.

that's all i have for tonight.



i'm back.